After my last final I have just been worn out. I knew I wanted to write about this past year but I needed to digest what I have been through. I can honestly say that this past school year has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I did things I didn't think I could do, but I have made it through and am more thankful for summer than I have ever been.
Some of my classmates say that first semester was the hardest but I think that the second semester was the worst. First semester was just an adjustment. Second semester was a lot of tough information to learn, plus I just had a lot of personal stuff going on. (read: broke up with my boyfriend)
Finals week was pretty stressful for me. Before starting vet school I had never gotten a C in my life. In fact I only had 2 or 3 B's in undergrad. The closest I ever came to a C was in biochemistry and that wasn't even that close. Vet school is a whole other story. I have gotten a few C's and am totally fine with that. I feel like I have learned so much and know the information.
Anyway, back to stressful finals week. My physiology grade was a 74% (ugh) and I was really frustrated with it because I know that I deserve a better grade than that but I'm not even going to get into that. (teacher was a jerk. bottomline.) I studied my butt off for that test. (seriously just thinking about what he did to us is raising my blood pressure right now. ha) He gave us a horrible test with info he specifically said we didn't need to learn. (I have a note twice where he said that) I was so afraid that I had failed the test and would fail the class. If that happened I would have to take an advancement exam and that would mean more studying before summer could start. Oh, did I mention this was the test I took on my birthday??
I got in my car and was just so frustrated. I listen to KLOVE most of the time. As soon as I got in my car they were talking about how God holds the script to our lives and no matter what we do he holds control. It was exactly what I needed to hear and it really gave me peace. Exactly why I listen to this station most of the time now. I'm not going to say that I didn't worry about what my grades were going to be anymore, but every time I would start getting worked up about it I would just remind myself that God was in control and there was no need to worry.
I got my grades back yesterday and I passed all my classes. I truly think that it is a miracle. I feel like I could have done better but I can honestly say that my heart and mind were not always focused on school this semester. Yes, my GPA took a hit, (That physiology class was a 5 hour class) but that doesn't matter. All that matters now is that I pass my classes and pass the board exam at the end.
I am so thankful to be done with the first year. I know that things are going to get better from here. I know I couldn't have done it without all the prayers and support of my family, church family, and friends.
Let the summer fun begin!! :)
{P.S. Thank you for all the birthday wishes!! More on that later. :)}
